i'm back again!

i was quite down when i was posting the previous entry. because i was badly hit by the news that came. and i had second thoughts about whether i should be really studying at private uni. it's a kind of bad feeling that i have inside of me which i doubt many can understand unless you're in the same situation as me.. but pf understood it and thanks for that encouraging advice you given me, i really thank you for talking it out with me.

and now, i'm finally feeling more relaxed because i'm glad for... well, as long as i know it in my heart then it's enough! i appreciate my sis and mum's effort in trying to help me get through this hurdle which i thought we couldnt handle. they're trying and giving in everything they have just to pull me through and i feel so loved and promise to work hard for them.

this is not gonna be an empty promise, trust me. my mum has been very supportive of me all along and she told me just now to study hard this time and really make every cents worth it. i totally love my mum to bits!!

anyway, i've made the payment of $668++ to retake alevels this year few months back. but i wont be retaking anymore and so we're getting full refund!! YAY. full refund because i got accepted into PSB Academy. i was still quite afraid that we wont be able to get the money back and i will be wasting that few hundred dollars just like that. but but, i emailed MOE yesterday and they told me i can get back the full refund. FULL. how good is that, so efficient.

making a trip down to PSB Academy tmr to submit all the forms and make payment for school fees. private uni really cost a bomb! we have to pay $11k tmr. wow, if only the money drops from the sky or something tonight. den it'll be so miracle! hahah just kidding la, money matters have been settled. i'm glad my family stands by me. i know i've repeated this a few times but i really feel so greatful. and no one can understand how i feel inside now. it's just pure joy.

Jarkata in a few days time. reading about the news of the France airplane that WENT MISSING made me extremely scare of taking any plane now. i mean such a big plane can go missing in the air and still cant be found, it's really frightening. i hope that our flight will be a smooth and safe one, i really hope!

and i think it's time i should start working now. earn more pocket money for my own expenses while i'm in uni. and if i need to get a laptop, then all the more i should start earning money. i do feel bad about it when my family already has to pay for the fees which is &!#$@#!. So, i have to play my part as well. lighten the burden.

my phone is screwed anyway. messages that you sent tonight may only be received in the next morning. or messages ppl sent in the morning, i only received at night. to hell with my phone, it's full of problems! zzz