yo! it's been weeks since i last blogged. i'm too busy, having to cope with so many stuffs like schwork and some family thingy. so many things happened over the past few days. so much so that it somehow affected me in one way or another. don blame me for my sudden moodswing, don blame me for being cold-hot. i've been trying so hard to stay happy and everything. but inside me, it's another feeling. sch is really driving me to nuts. having to cope with so many tests and stuffs. so much hmwk and tests coming up. even common test is coming up too. the stress in me is building up, i'm so tired. so sick and tired of everything happening around me. sick of english lessons, geog lessons. sigh. am gonna break down soon, in a matter of time. anyway, O lvl MT results are gonna be out soon, next week. sigh. this is another headache issue to me. i need some rest, some sleep to keep me going. i need a long break, but only after O's. sigh...

anyway, my limit to certain things has sort of reach to the maximum and i can burst out at any time. for some reasons, i have to keep all these to myself. i can't share it with someone i can trust in. there's no one who can sit down and listen to me? i know there are, but it's hard to find. i wanted to much to say things out but i can't bring myself to say it. tears fill my eyes when i was about to say something. i'm utterly disappointed this time, for all the unhappy things that happened. i believe it's just another obstacle that i have to try to get through it. it's not easy but at least i tried. i can never believe whatever that came out of his mouth. it's something so cruel and it hurts. it hurts her to a certain extend, from what i know. giving in to you, letting you have what you want, trying their best to provide you with everything. but what they get is just rubbish from you?? i hate to see that fcuking attitude of yours, it irks me to the core. i hate to see you treating them as if they didnt bring you up! i hate to even see that face of yours in the day, as well as the night. i'm glad i don have to face you that much during weekdays. how i wish that weekends never come. the hatred in me had increased tremendously, you have no one to blame but yourself. blame it on your stupidity, blame it on your foolishness. you don have the ability to even support yourself and yet you give this kind of fcuking attitude to someone who care so much and has so much hopes in you. you destroyed everything, you don belong to one of us. you made your own choice and no one is gonna care about it, no more. all these nonsenses have to stop one day, soon. i cant tolerate your attitude, i wanted so much to rant at you in your face. but i know i have no rights too in terms of AGE!!! you ain't any better than me, you only know how to hurt ppl and rot all day. facing the comp and play your stupid childish and senseless games. serves you right for being single for so long. hope you'll stay single forever. so that no one is ever gonna give you the care that you wanted. i don know why, but i hate you THIS much. there's nothing i can do to ease this hatred stored in me.!!