i'm tired now, had a bad day today. when i woke up in the morning, i had a bad headache. so i went to take 2 tablets of panadol to ease the pain, at least it did help a little. den went for badminton, was having headache when playing. so played awhile den i stopped playing cos i couldn't continue on. after bmt, i came back home to bath and change to go airport. my grandparents are back from taiwan today. i didnt go my grandparents hse for soo long and thus my aunts and uncles are bombarding me with questions. regarding my studies and so on. i really hate it when ppl ask me questions regarding abt studies. cos i have my own time-table to follow. don bother asking me to study and study cos i really dislike all the nagging and stuffs. came back home, had a little argument with my father. cos i was like using the comp and he starts his nagging session again. for goodness sake, i only used it for like 10mins OUT OF THE WHOLE DAY. and there he goes, nagging at me. i didnt get to use the comp at all until i came back home around 11+. and i've only used it for like 10mins and he's scolding me. nonsenses ppl. zzz.

i'm so not in the right mood today. not mood swing, don worry. but due to things happening around me, i'm getting a little pissed off and tired. i wish that i can have a good sleep, but i cant. every morning, the same thing will repeat. you people are not tired of all these nonsenses, but i am. why cant you just shut the hell up and take a step back! it's not that difficult to settle things amicably! things happening are driving me nuts, i'm like at my wits end. too tired to do anything, too tired to be thinking of anything. i'm having a bad headache now. i need to go sleep!!! i think i'm sick now. my forehead is getting hot but my hands and legs are getting cold. i know i'm sick when i feel like this. i feel so helpless now. sigh. if only there's a sleeping pill now, how good will it be. sigh. take care.

_PAIN_(a poem i wrote in sec2)
The pain is unbearable,
it's hurting me deep inside my heart.
Like a dagger piercing through with no mercy.
The pain is beyond expressions, beyond words,
and beyond my ultimate.
People around me are hurting me,
as if they had never done before.
The pain is what i can't endure,
and my heart is now not in one piece.
It's killing me, but i cant do anything.
all that i need now,
is something that will take away my pain.
A dosage of anaesthetic if need be.

The pain is unbearable,
it's hurting me deep inside my heart.
Families and friends oblivious of my situation,
as if i am invisible.
They are the one whom i trust the most,
without any reservations.
Yet they are also the one who brought about my pain.
They are not worthy of my trust,
they are just so unfeeling.
The pain they brought to me,
is as agonizing as the capital punishment.

The pain is unbearable,
it's hurting me deep inside my heart.
With no alternatives, i feel like dying this instant.
As the pain is beyond expressions, beyond words,
and beyond my ultimate.
Now being alone in the darkness, i cant see anything.
My life is now meaningless, as all i feel now is pain,
but nothing more than pain.
Deep down, no one ever understand me,
but all i need now is just someone who cares.
To release me from my sufferings,
and to let me recollect the feeling of happiness,
even if it is just a tinge of it...